Friday, October 03, 2003
been listening to the radio damn often.hahas.
love this song by simple plan.
kinda reflect my life a lil. ):
hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand
* bt this applies to my mum mre.my dad dotes on me qt alot.
but my mum?she jez feels im nt gud at anythin.
lukin at my results she saes im nt gud at anything.
she's wondering wad i'll grow up to be.
for nw all i wan is to do wad i wan & fulfil my own dreams.
bt instead she kips pressurizing me to choose my future.
wad courses to stardee in JC.
where i'll work or study. -sighs-
wen i dun do well she mkes it seem like i didnt bother tryin.
so nw im left wondering.wad am i act stardeeing for.
since even if i do or don do, she's neva pleased.
-confused and frustrating-oh wells.dats life for me.
so screwed.jez wanna let each dae pass by.
and try to live it to the fullest.shud plae mre.
in case i wun get to nxt time.
life's boring and sucky.
i neva get to do things i wan to.
or experience independence fully.
parents jus dun trust me.
if i make mke a mistke dey jez kip emphasizin on it.
is it dat hard to trust ur own daughter?
i dun rebel or anything.
i jus wan to live my own life.
a life i enjoy and will wan to rmb.
oh wells.all the restrictions and naggin.
jez sucks la.my mum tinks shes damn great.
and dat nuthin we do is as wei da as wad she
does for us.wad the hell mans.
saes she's doesnt understand why we are doing
so badly in studies.i mean HELLO!? if it were so
easy why dun she tke the tests for me.
arghs.aiyar.im jez ignoring all ur naggin.
wadeva she saes slices thru my heart.
i cant tke it anymore.she doesnt spare a tot
abt my feelings and how fragile i reallie am.
so
insensitive. -bleahs-
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