Wednesday, August 03, 2005
and well, besides the fact that jon's in my life now, nuthing else is actually great abt my life any longer. -sighs.
ok not excluding u girls. (tanny, mich, sab, karina, sarah)
but oh wells, life kinda stinks.
cos i wanna play and have fun and stuff. and yet on the other hand i cant do so and i wld feel guilty doing so. cos now, the pe dept feels that im very ill disciplined, which is true. but now, they're all hunting me down and im on the book of hated students in mr tan's list. bummers.
life isnt all that good after all.
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im on a row. 3 bad days in a row.
mon, tues and wed.
-sighs.
had to see ms lim regarding my results and badminton attendance on mondae.
she didnt allow me to not train on mons.
such a bitch i swear.
i mean, mr goh didnt even question me and stuff ! wth. grrr. so irritating.
and then she got me to re-do my timetable for her cos what i did was not up to standards.
and she kinda screwed me on studying with my friends in the canteen !
wth lahs. now i cant study in the canteen with friends ? -rolls eyes.
seriously lahs. argghhhsss.
and ive to go up to pe dept after sch to study if i want to stay in sch to mug.
so restraining and retarded right.
my gosh.
no one ever had to put such stupid rules for me to follow ! bloody hell.
does she reallie tink im that incorrigible ? i feel so insulted.
anyhow, so mon's drama is over.
onto tues, started feelin worse.
as in i was having a slight sore throat on mon, tues it became worse.
so i was feeling sick and tired and restless in sch and when i was in the library with jon.
went parkway to eat bk and gelare ! ((:
cheered me up and all.
so actually, tues wasnt all that bad afterall i guess.
considering i was losing blood quite rapidly. bleahs.
today.. (wed) is the WORST.
i skipped trng again.
cos i was feeling REALLY sick.
i wanted to puke on the way to sch.
was getting slight headaches and all that stuff. my nose was stuffed up or runny.
so i heeded mel's advice and not go for trng and decided to go home.
but i guess that didnt go too well.
even though i msged belle abt not gg for trng, ms lim called ltr and asked why i didnt tell her instead and questioned me abt not gg to see her tday regarding my timetable.
but i missed her call the first time and only answered when i saw mr tan yee hwee's number flashing on my hp's screen. cos scared naturally and yeahs. picked up.
-sighs.
this badminton thing is giving me so much stress mans.
everytime i think abt it i feel so upset and frustrated.
on one hand i feel bad abt not trng, but on the other, i dun wan to train !
my passion is fading and i dont feel like playing badminton anymore.
but i guess i cant do so, cos i came into vjc to play badminton for them and now mr tan's pissed with me. im SUPER screwed.
and now, ive my timetable to settle by tonight. im dreading school even more nowadays. ):
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